feelings.

I AM VERY ANGRY. I was bullied TERRIBLY all my childhood ... and I have been betrayed by everyone who claimed they would never abandon me when I first became SO deathly ill in my early 20's. Long-term relationships (we're talking 5+ years), every friend I had managed to keep from the aforementioned bullies who … Continue reading feelings.

I am not ready to lose sparky puck … and he is just starting to feel good after a year. he deserves everything.

Today I finally made an appointment that isn't a month+ out for Sparky Puck to get his radiation / other treatments for adenocarcinoma. This is not going to be an inexpensive treatment course, and I can't say much before I just break down, but I wanted everyone who reads this to know that I am … Continue reading I am not ready to lose sparky puck … and he is just starting to feel good after a year. he deserves everything.

We need another miracle … i don’t ask whatever the higher power is for much … but please, we need a miracle.

I have been "assigned," for lack of a more exact phrase - too much stress and sadness - to start my blog up again ... so here I am!I will come back tomorrow and try to give a brief rundown about how ... awful ... the last few years have been ... and those years … Continue reading We need another miracle … i don’t ask whatever the higher power is for much … but please, we need a miracle.

How Many Years …

I am sure I will write at least another post with this title. Maybe a book. But for now, all I will say is HOW MANY YEARS WILL IT TAKE TO FORGET YOU??I don't know. I'm not there yet. I wonder if I will ever be. *And all the obvious "you"s that could mean are … Continue reading How Many Years …