I AM VERY ANGRY. I was bullied TERRIBLY all my childhood ... and I have been betrayed by everyone who claimed they would never abandon me when I first became SO deathly ill in my early 20's. Long-term relationships (we're talking 5+ years), every friend I had managed to keep from the aforementioned bullies who … Continue reading feelings.
If I have not made this obvious enough, I will state it very clearly and succinctly here -if Sparky Puck were not here, I wouldn't be either.And so I ask ... why is it that the MANY people I have helped not even just recently by doing things like giving my personal doctor's information or … Continue reading Fundraising to help save sparky puck
Today I finally made an appointment that isn't a month+ out for Sparky Puck to get his radiation / other treatments for adenocarcinoma. This is not going to be an inexpensive treatment course, and I can't say much before I just break down, but I wanted everyone who reads this to know that I am … Continue reading I am not ready to lose sparky puck … and he is just starting to feel good after a year. he deserves everything.
Late last 2020 - I had finally reconnected with one of the few friends who had not dumped me in the proverbial friendship garbage pile during the time when I was so ill, fighting for my life (I have spoken about this before but, in short, I lost just about every friend that I had … Continue reading A Brief history of the last two years
I have been "assigned," for lack of a more exact phrase - too much stress and sadness - to start my blog up again ... so here I am!I will come back tomorrow and try to give a brief rundown about how ... awful ... the last few years have been ... and those years … Continue reading We need another miracle … i don’t ask whatever the higher power is for much … but please, we need a miracle.
I apologize first and foremost because I am going through mental HELL right now and I am in a lot of pain. I have been crying for the better part of now nearly 36 hours and I am so beyond tired and so beyond fed up with it all that I (also very literally) cannot … Continue reading Physical Involvement
My mom had a terrible childhood; I will not say too much about that because I am currently working on an interview "series" with her to hear her whole story and get it in writing. But to make a VERY long story short, she was adopted as a baby when her biological mother became pregnant … Continue reading An Anecdote
This one is breaking my heart a little bit. I sat down with my leg up and started watching a random film on Netflix which takes place in Great Britain ... and I swear I have been to some of the places in some scenes of the film. That summer was one of the best … Continue reading “Oh, The Places YOU Will Go …”
I really am going to try my best to make this a short post - I really just wanted to get this idea down before it flew off into the vault of Beth. I think those of us who have severe chronic illness have a very strange relationship with death - I think that relationship … Continue reading Life and Death
I am sure I will write at least another post with this title. Maybe a book. But for now, all I will say is HOW MANY YEARS WILL IT TAKE TO FORGET YOU??I don't know. I'm not there yet. I wonder if I will ever be. *And all the obvious "you"s that could mean are … Continue reading How Many Years …