I can’t seem to sleep because I feel just awful awful … I don’t know what is going on with my body, but it is NOT happy.
So I need sleep and my body won’t sleep. I need the fruits and veggies I have in my fridge but the nausea is overwhelming. I have too much to do and important appointments I should make but I physically cannot do it right now.
AND, as I mentioned earlier this week, the panic ATTACKS are insane. I’m getting hit HARD about 5 times a day … that’s a lot. And I mean like out of the blue, smacks me in the face panic attacks. I can be walking down the sidewalk feeling a little better and WHAM! Panic … ATTACK!
I know there are always things about which to “panic,” but given my current physical state, i.e., sick, I really need these panic attacks to subside for a few.
❤ Always, Beth
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I have been living with chronic illness since I was 2 months old. My first "formal" chronic illness diagnosis was Behçet's Disease - I was 17 at the time. I was later diagnosed with Common Variable Immune Deficiency (I more or less led the doctors to that diagnosis - that story is for another time!) and those have been my "primary" two illnesses. I have many other "secondary" diagnoses such as seronegative Rheumatoid Arthritis, Chiari 1 Malformation (a result, I believe, of the Behçet's causing aseptic meningitis time and again since it had never appeared in brain scans before I was about 24-25), osteoporosis, compression fractures of the thoracic spine, and many others. I know what it is like to feel as if you have lost years of your life that you can never recover from illness and the many restrictions it places upon you in your everyday life. I just want you to know that I know what it is like and I have been there through every period of my life - you are NOT ALONE! Please do not hesitate to contact me if you ever need someone to talk with or someone just to listen to you - I am always here! Thank you for taking the time to read this and my other posts and I hope you are having a happy and healthy day no matter where you are in the world! Take care.
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